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March 8, 2014 posted by Nichole

Faking Normal by Courtney C. Stevens

15726915An edgy, realistic, and utterly captivating novel from an exciting new voice in teen fiction.

Alexi Littrell hasn’t told anyone what happened to her over the summer. Ashamed and embarrassed, she hides in her closet and compulsively scratches the back of her neck, trying to make the outside hurt more than the inside does.

When Bodee Lennox, the quiet and awkward boy next door, comes to live with the Littrells, Alexi discovers an unlikely friend in “the Kool-Aid Kid,” who has secrets of his own. As they lean on each other for support, Alexi gives him the strength to deal with his past, and Bodee helps her find the courage to finally face the truth.

A searing, poignant book, Faking Normal is the extraordinary debut novel from an exciting new author-Courtney C. Stevens.

 

Oh my God….this book……my heart……THE FEELS! I have so many emotions and thoughts over this book. It broke my heart into tiny little pieces over and over and OVER again. It was SO BEAUTIFUL! Dude…I don’t even LIKE contemporary books that much, but this book? This book will forever be one of my favorites. It had so much meaning…..so much depth. It was just……..perfection between pages.

The two main characters, Alexi and Bodee, were absolutely heartbreaking. It killed me to read about the things that troubled them. I just wanted to hug them close and never EVER let them go. Especially Bodee. Oh my sweet goodness, Bodee. He is at the top of my fictional male characters list. The best thing about Bodee was that he absolutely had his flaws. He wasn’t perfect, and he embraced that. But he sure tried to be. He tried to be perfection and support for Alexi. That boy……that boy……just talking about him makes me want to cry.

And Alexi? Her troubles ripped my heart into shreds. She made me cry my eyes out and try to reach her through those thin pages. I’ll warn you guys that rape is a big topic in this book. That might be a huge trigger for some people. I thought it would bug me…..it didn’t. Not at all. NOT AT ALL. Courtney C. Stevens took such an intense topic and made me FEEL. THE FEELS, PEOPLE!

One of the best things about this book is that if you think you know what’s going on there’s a good chance that you’re wrong. I sure was. I thought FOR SURE that I knew what was going on. I knew who raped Alexi and who was causing her to close in on herself. I didn’t. I admit defeat! I was wrong. And I love this book even more for that.

I’m going to  cheat a little here and let you all know that this book DOES have a good ending. I have to say that, because I wanted to quit this book because I didn’t want to see Bodee get hurt. I didn’t want to see anyone get hurt. I loved the book way too much for that.  But it DOES have a good ending. I was happy with the way things turned out.

If I haven’t convinced you to read this book, then I don’t know what will. This book is the definition of perfection. Go buy it today!

 

Pages: 336

Publication Date: February 25th, 2014

Publisher: HarperCollins Children’s Books

Rating: : ★★★★★

Book Reviews
January 13, 2014 posted by Nichole

No One Else Can Have You by Kathleen Hale

18052934Small towns are nothing if not friendly. Friendship, Wisconsin (population: 688) is no different. Around here, everyone wears a smile. And no one ever locks their doors. Until, that is, high school sweetheart Ruth Fried is found murdered. Strung up like a scarecrow in the middle of a cornfield.

Unfortunately, Friendship’s police are more adept at looking for lost pets than catching killers. So Ruth’s best friend, Kippy Bushman, armed with only her tenacious Midwestern spirit and Ruth’s secret diary (which Ruth’s mother had asked her to read in order to redact any, you know, sex parts), sets out to find the murderer. But in a quiet town like Friendship—where no one is a suspect—anyone could be the killer.

 

One word describes No One Else Can Have You by Kathleen Hale; Creepy. And of course, being the brilliant person that I am, I mostly read this book at bedtime when it was dark outside and I could have the crap scared out of me. It was so vivid, so beautifully detailed, so fucking creepy. Holy smokes. I had to actually give myself lectures to not dream about scarecrow stuffed girls hanging from a tree before I went to sleep. Yes, I really just said that.

No One Else Can Have You is one of the best mystery books that I have ever read in the YA genre. With many mystery books, the plots are very obvious and predictable.  No One Else Can Have You left me hanging until the very last second. Sure, I had suspects in my head, but I never really knew who did it. I guessed who it was before they were introduced at the end but that’s only because it was pretty much laid out for the reader by then. One could complain that the killer was one of my original suspects from the very beginning of the book. However, I kind of pushed them aside and thought that it was between a few other people. My only complaint is that the final showdown felt a little rushed. I would have preferred a little more time dedicated to that since almost 350 pages were dedicated to trying to figure out who did it. I also would have liked one final confrontation with the killer at the ending of the book. I felt that they had more to say, and I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get to hear it. Maybe there will be a second book? I feel that this could either work as a standalone OR as a series.

On a more negative note, I did have two complaints with No One Else Can Have You. First, I didn’t like Kippy. I actually couldn’t stand her. She didn’t come off as a 16-year-old to me. She seemed a lot younger and really immature for her age. There were some times I struggled with the book, because it was just so hard being in Kippy’s head all the time. Secondly, I had a really hard time with the accents of the characters. Everyone came across as very uneducated and hickish. It was very difficult for me to like or connect to any of the characters, because I just couldn’t stand them. It was almost like every single character had something a little wrong with them. The writing itself was beautiful, but the characters were just way too annoying for my taste.

The best part of No One Else Can Have You was Kippy’s adventures and her mission to find out who really killed her friend. I may not have liked Kippy very much, but I sure did suck this book down fast. I felt like it was always holding me in suspense. I just couldn’t wait to figure out what was going to happen next. There was nothing tame or mild about this book. It was an in your face roller coaster ride that just left my heart pounding. I loved it. I loved the suspense and the tiny bit of horror to it. It scared the crap out of me. I love being able to say that about a book.

I will warn readers that there will be parts of this book that absolutely piss you off. Everyone is against Kippy finding her friends killer. They think she’s crazy and that she’s just having a mental breakdown. The things that are said and done to her in this book left me fuming. It was really difficult not to skim through those sections because they just made me so angry. At the same time, those parts are necessary for the book. It’s a brilliant book and those scenes really add to it. But they will make you so mad. You have no idea until you actually read it. There’s also a really weird section toward the end of the book. Power through it. It will be worth it!

Fans of Romily Bernard MUST read this book!

 

Pages: 384

Publication Date: January 7th, 2013

Publisher: Harper Teen

Rating: : ★★★★☆

Book Reviews
October 13, 2013 posted by Nichole

Chasing Shadows – by Swati Avasthi & Illustrated by Craig Phillips

15756269Chasing Shadows is a searing look at the impact of one random act of violence.

Before: Corey, Holly, and Savitri are one unit—fast, strong, inseparable. Together they turn Chicago concrete and asphalt into a freerunner’s jungle gym, ricocheting off walls, scaling buildings, leaping from rooftop to rooftop.

But acting like a superhero doesn’t make you bulletproof…

After: Holly and Savitri are coming unglued. Holly says she’s chasing Corey’s killer, chasing revenge. Savitri fears Holly’s just running wild—and leaving her behind. Friends should stand by each other in times of crissi. But can you hold on too tight? Too long?

In this intense novel, told in two voices, and incorporating comic-style art sections, Swati Avasthi creates a gripping portrait of two girls teetering on the edge of grief and insanity. Two girls who will find out just how many ways there are to lose a friend . . . and how many ways to be lost.

 

Chasing Shadows is one of those books that I simply read for the cover. I mean look at that. It’s gorgeous! Before I read the synopsis, I had no idea it was contemporary. And as you know, I’m not the biggest fan of contemporary books. But every now and then, I find a contemporary book that I fall head over heels in love with. This was one of those books.

The thing that most made this book was the pictures. I’ve never read a graphic novel before, but I’m tempted to after looking at Craigh Phillips’s work. I actually found myself speed reading to get to the next frame of pictures. They were amazingly beautiful and so detailed. I was just blown away by the artwork in this book. It also blended very well with the story. You know, even though it switched from page long text to graphic images with bubble text, I still felt 100% in the story. I think it added to it in the sense that I was actually getting to see the characters. After reading this book, I really want to see more graphic images in YA books.

Swati Avasthi’s writing style was also unique and heart wrenching. While she doesn’t really write in poetry (although there were a few occurrences of that,) her writing style reminded me a lot of that of Ellen Hopkins. It was both lyrical and poetic. Whenever I would set this book down, I would find myself craving it. I needed to know what happened next. I needed to get to the next set of pictures. I found myself racing to the end to see what exactly was going to happen next. I loved it. I wish there were more books like this. No other word fits this better than beautiful.

There’s nothing really negative to say about Chasing Shadows, but I did wish that it stroked more emotion from me. The best contemporary novels have made me cry, and this one didn’t quite hit that level for me. I was completely invested in the characters, but I needed just a little bit of something else to trigger the water works. Some people might wonder WHY I would want to cry, but I’ve found that a contemporary book that makes you cry is one to keep with you forever. Crying means that that book was it’s best. And I feel like maybe…just maybe…this one needed a little more to be perfection.

Chasing Shadows is 100% realistic contemporary. It deals with trauma, friendship, loyalty, and mental illness. I’ll admit it, I’ve never read about mental illness before. Quite frankly, it scares the living daylights out of me. And since I’m not the biggest fan of contemporary, I don’t really immerse myself in that type of environment. Reading about it in Chasing Shadows was very intense and a little hard sometimes. This book had twists and turns that I didn’t really see coming (and some that I did,) and I just felt  emotionally exhausted after I finished it. After I finished it, all I could think is that this is something that I would want my students to be reading. I think that this book sends a great message to young adults, and it is just perfect for teenagers all over the world to read. It was so freaking beautiful.

This book came out in September, so it SHOULD  be available at your local bookstores and libraries. I would encourage every single person, whether you’re a contemporary fan or not, to go read this book. I’m not a contemporary fan, and I loved it. And I think that this is a great book to immerse yourself in artwork and excellent for fans of graphic novels. I loved it. I hope you love it, too.

 

Pages: 320

Publication Date: September 24th 2013

Publisher: Knopf Books for Young Readers

Rating: : ★★★★☆

 

Teaser Quote: “Corey did handstands four flights up, Holly crawled into someone else’s skin, and I swallowed stones of guilt just to hide from a simple fact: we are all vulnerable, and there is nothing between us and a bullet. It’s terrifying, this life. It’s precarious, it’s random un-design.”

Catherine – April Lindner
Book Reviews
December 29, 2012 posted by Nichole

Catherine – April Lindner

A forbidden romance. A modern mystery. Wuthering Heights as you’ve never seen it before.

Catherine is tired of struggling musicians befriending her just so they can get a gig at her Dad’s famous Manhattan club, The Underground. Then she meets mysterious Hence, an unbelievably passionate and talented musician on the brink of success. As their relationship grows, both are swept away in a fiery romance. But when their love is tested by a cruel whim of fate, will pride keep them apart?

Chelsea has always believed that her mom died of a sudden illness, until she finds a letter her dad has kept from her for years—a letter from her mom, Catherine, who didn’t die: She disappeared. Driven by unanswered questions, Chelsea sets out to look for her—starting with the return address on the letter: The Underground.

Told in two voices, twenty years apart, Catherine interweaves a timeless forbidden romance with a compelling modern mystery.

Chelsea has always been told that her mom died when she was very young. One night she finds a letter from her mother telling her otherwise, so Chelsea sets out on a mission to discover the mystery of her mother’s disappearance. This is how she ends up in New York at the club that her mother grew up in along with the mysterious Hence. Turns out, Hence is Chelsea’s mom’s old boyfriend and one true love. Together, they must find out what happened to Chelsea’s mom.

Catherine has grown up in the music scene for as long as she can remember. Her dad’s the owner of a famous club, and she’s on the right track to Harvard. But things start to change when Catherine meets Hence, the boy without money or a place to stay. Convincing her father to let Hence stay in their basement, they slowly begin to develop feelings for one another. But their relationship gets rocky and their love gets put to the test. Will their pride tear them apart or will they make it last?

 

I instantly fell madly in love with Catherine by April Lindner. The words, plot, character….everything…they  were all so gorgeous. I devoured the book in a little over a day, and I was depressed towards the beginning that it was going to end soon. I especially loved Catherine and Hence. What a gorgeous couple! I wish that the book would have eliminated Chelsea’s section and just focused on the romance between Catherine and Hence, because their relationship was one of the best things I’ve ever experienced.

It was interesting to read about Chelsea’s POV. For awhile, I really didn’t know what happened to Catherine, and it was cool reading about Chelsea play detective. Again, though, I wish that she hadn’t existed. I wanted to read about Catherine and Hence, and I found myself wanting to fast forward through Chelsea’s sections.

I want to point out that I have not read Wuthering Heights before, so I have no idea what happens at the end of it.  I’ve heard positive and negative things about it. One thing I’ve heard is that the main male character plays a very domineering male, which is something that I am not interested in reading about. But let me tell you, if the ending of Wuthering Heights is ANYTHING like the ending of Catherine, I will never ever ever ever EVER read it!

The ending of Catherine upset me so much that it dropped from a 5 star to a 2 star in less than five minutes. I finished the book the night before I’m writing this review and my emotions are all over the place. I’m angry, sad, and devastated. I had guessed what had happened to Catherine and everything that surrounded her mysterious disappearance long before the ending, but I thought it was some sick joke when Lindner put it to action. I wanted to see romance between Catherine and Hence, I didn’t want to see her completely ruin her story and her character.

As I’m writing this, I’m trying to give as little away as possible because the ending was so intense and upset me so much. I do want to say that I will never read this book again. Not only that, but I didn’t even finish the book. After what she did at the end, I didn’t even care about the last few chapters. I skimmed them and turned off my laptop. I was not impressed.

I honestly felt a little violated, actually. I invested so much time and energy into that book. I fell in love with it and considered it one of my favorite books of the year. I cannot recommend this book, because I know that the ending will devastate other readers. Some might say that the ending was romantic, but I would disagree. It wasn’t romantic…it was sick! No. I am really disappointed with Catherine, and I will not be reading it again in the future.

People who loved Wuthering Heights might enjoy this book..I really don’t know. But as someone who has not read Wuthering Heights, I was really crushed by what was done to the book. I want my contemporary to have a romance that will last. And when the romance is so beautiful, I don’t want it to be messed with. So, I wouldn’t really know how to recommend this book even if I wanted to. I guess if you loved Wuthering Heights, give it a shot. But if you didn’t read Wuthering Heights, stay far, far away.

Pages: 320

Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers

Publication Date: January 2nd, 2013

Rating: : ★★☆☆☆

 

Beautiful Malice – Rebecca James
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January 14, 2012 posted by Bianca

Beautiful Malice – Rebecca James

“Katherine has moved away from her shattered family to start afresh in Sydney. There she keeps her head down until she is befriended by the charismatic, party-loving Alice, who brings her out of her shell. But there is a dark side to Alice, something seductive yet threatening. And as Katherine learns the truth about Alice, their tangled destinies spiral to an explosive and devastating finale.”

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If you have read the hype regarding this novel , you would believe that Rebecca James is going to be the next JK Rowling. That is a big call, and not really fair to the author. Flattering? Yes. Fair? No. I too, knew sketchily of the details surrounding ‘Beautiful Malice’ – a bidding war at a book fair in Germany – or somewhere. I wasn’t really paying attention because I was, as most wannabe writers often are, too busy being insanely jealous. So of course when I picked up the novel I was expecting to be blown away.

I wasn’t. But what I did get was a solid read that kept me interested, if not utterly engrossed and up reading past 2am. But I must stress, that even though I didn’t love and adore this book, I can see the appeal and why many others would rate it very, very highly.

In this part romance, part thriller, we are introduced to Katherine Patterson, an intelligent girl who is completing her high school career, away from her family and friends. But we don’t worry about why too much, as we are swept up with Katherine’s new friendship with Alice and Alice’s ‘kind of’ boyfriend, Robbie.  Beautiful, sexy, crazy Alice. It soon becomes clear that crazy is definitely a word used to describe her. Spiteful, cruel, arrogant and scary also come to mind. Although Katherine has been dealt some horrifying blows in her life, she still has her wits about her, and when Alice’s behaviour becomes truly inappropriate, Katherine cuts her loose. Doing her final exams, nurturing a new love and finally being happy – an unhinged bestie is the last thing Katherine needs. Of course, that is when the fun really begins. Katherine’s tragic past becomes a focus for Alice; a means to wreak havoc on Katherine and those she loves.

It has been claimed that the novel has a strong ‘international appeal’, which I think suggests that it isn’t noticeably ‘Australian’. I can’t figure out whether that is an insult or not. It is Catch-22 for me. I love teen stories set in America, with the school hallways indoors, the cafeterias, snow, no school uniform and ‘mom’. I suppose that with a tweak of mum to mom, the change a some place names and a bit of a flora readjustment, this story could be set anywhere. Does it matter? I guess not. I am just not sure if it is a sell-out when a story set in Sydney, by an Aussie author doesn’t feel Australian.

‘Neutral’ setting aside, I liked Katherine. She has a good head on her shoulders – she doesn’t fall prey to Alice’s manipulation and has the strength to end their friendship. Alice is just a nasty piece of work, all the things you expect a bunny-boiling villain to be, but you do wonder how she got so far hiding her crazy. That in itself is impressive, if not a plot hole. Robbie, who makes up the third member of the trio is sweet and gorgeous – you want to hate his weakness where Alice is concerned, but well, she’s gorgeous and seductive and fun, and he’s a boy. What can he do in the face of that? He is not totally clueless; he does realise the hold Alice has over him, and he does pull her up on her behaviour when necessary.

While I don’t want to give to much away regarding the plot – as a thriller, you need the surprises – I feel that Katherine went through a hell of a lot to achieve what happens at the end of most teen romance novels. I know this isn’t a teen romance, but if the murder, mayhem and Alice’s crazy was notched down a bit, it could be. With a bit more swearing. When you reach the end of this novel you will feel wrung out and maybe a little hopeful, that the good, decent characters will finally get what they deserve – peace and happiness. Early on in the novel, we know Alice got what she deserved. You just have to read on to find out how.

Pages: 283

Publication Date: June, 2010

Publisher: Allen & Unwin

Challenge: Debut Author

Rating: : ★★★½☆

Teaser Quote: Robbie’s father puts his hand on Alice’s arm and pulls her in beside him. Alice’s face is absolutely inscrutable – and though she’d looked shocked when she’d first seen us, she now looks perfectly comfortable, slightly amused even, as if this whole situation is just a game, and we are the toys.

The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer (Mara Dyer, #1) — Michelle Hodkin
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November 24, 2011 posted by Kiona

The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer (Mara Dyer, #1) — Michelle Hodkin

Mara Dyer doesn’t think life can get any stranger than waking up in a hospital with no memory of how she got there.

It can.

She believes there must be more to the accident she can’t remember that killed her friends and left her mysteriously unharmed.

There is.

She doesn’t believe that after everything she’s been through, she can fall in love.

She’s wrong.

When Mara Dyer wakes up from a coma in the hospital, her memories are fuzzy. Slowly, bits and pieces start coming back to Mara and she realizes that she is the only survivor in a terrible accident that killed her best friend, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend’s sister. Mara can’t return to school without seeing Rachel’s face at every turn, so she and her family move to Florida for a new start. But even in Florida she’s haunted by frighteningly lifelike hallucinations. Wherever she goes, death seems to follow.

Mara’s mom is convinced that Mara is unstable and Mara is starting to agree with her when she meets Noah. Noah doesn’t think she’s crazy. And at first, when she’s around Noah, Mara doesn’t feel crazy. But even Noah can’t stave off her hallucinations forever. He’s willing to do whatever it takes to help Mara, though, if only she’s willing to trust him.

The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer is definitely worth the hype, though it took me until about the last fifty pages to realize it. The entire book was great, but until the end, I felt like I was still waiting and waiting to be blown away. And then I was.

The first thing I loved about The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer was how absolutely well-written it was. Michelle Hodkin knows her way around the English language. Her vocabulary is impressive and even introduces the reader to new words (quite a feat in the eyes of many avid readers and reviewers). Her descriptions were lyrical and powerful, avoiding cliché at every turn. The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer is filled with alternating chilling and searing romantic scenes. It’ll make your heart race in anticipation for a variety of reasons – and you’ll love every second of it.

I really liked Mara. She experienced so much trauma, but she never gave into defeat. Despite all the awful things happening in her life, she still persevered, refusing to give up on herself no matter how crazy she thought she was. Her strength was so, so likable. Especially when she started at a new school during her Junior year and attracted the attention of the resident mean girl and her entourage. And I liked that she didn’t automatically melt in response to Noah’s romantic advances. He had to work for her attention and friendship so that their relationship turned out extremely gratifying.

But as much as I liked Mara, her thought processes confounded me. She suffered from the typical self-doubt the comes with falling for the most desirable guy in school – the he’s-realized-I’m-not-worth-it-so-he’s-going-to-leave-me-and-there’s-nothing-I-can-do-about-it syndrome. I don’t know why it’s so hard for our favorite heroines to believe that they actually deserve love, but this rampant phenomenon is starting to grate on my nerves. Also, I didn’t understand the justification behind Mara’s actions at the end of the book. Her reasoning felt flimsy and contradicted everything we’d learned about her character throughout the entire book. I didn’t believe that she could make such a huge decision so easily, that she was willing to give up due to that one action.

Still, despite my problems with the ending, it left me even more intrigued than when I began the book. I absolutely cannot wait for the second installment of the Mara Dyer series. If you’re looking for a well-written book that’s heavy on romance and light on paranormalcy, then get your hands on a copy of The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer. You won’t be disappointed.

Pages: 452
Publication Date: September 2011
Publisher: Simon & Schuster
Challenge: Debut Author
Rating : ★★★★★

Teaser Quote: “You’re my girl,” he said simply, because it was true. “But if you do this, you’ll be someone else.”

Book Reviews
January 2, 2011 posted by Christina

Mercy – Rebecca Lim (Mercy, Book 1)

“As an angel exiled from heaven and doomed to return repeatedly to Earth, Mercy is never sure whose life and body she will share each time. And her mind is filled with the desperate pleas of her beloved, Luc, who can only approach her in her dreams.

In Paradise, Mercy meets Ryan, whose sister was kidnapped two years ago and is now presumed dead. When another girl disappears, Mercy and Ryan know they must act before time runs out. But a host of angels are out for Mercys blood and they wont rest until they find her and punish her — for a crime she doesnt remember committing …”

In amongst the growing number of young adult novels based around angels – particularly the exiled kind, comes Mercy by Rebecca Lim. When there are quite a few books based on a similar topic, it can be hard to stand out from the crowd, or in this case, the bookshelf.

Mercy combines the concept of exiled angels with a forbidden and intriguing romance and adds a twist – a mysterious kidnapping.

When Mercy (in the form of an angelic soul) wakes up on a school bus, now bound in a body belonging to a girl named Carmen, she must immediately adjust and carry on as Carmen would’ve, while also trying to figure out why this time she has been placed in this particular body.

This is one of many times this has happened, since her exile (for a crime she’s unable to remember) she has been moved from body to body, life to life, many times, only remembering a few details from the previous host and doomed to do so indefinitely.

This punishment not only keeps her away from her true form but also from her love, Luc, whom she only sees very briefly in her dreams, only long enough to give her cryptic advice. If all this wasn’t enough she’s also being hunted by an angelic band of eight brothers, who only have one intent: to kill.

When she arrives in the town of Paradise, as part of the school’s choir as their star soprano, she discovers the family she’s boarding with is still harboring the pain of their shattered past when their teenage daughter, Lauren, was abducted from her bedroom two years ago. All believe her to be dead, except her twin brother Ryan. Together, Mercy and Ryan conduct their own search and rescue, determined to get Lauren back.

The story is artfully written and the plotline in Mercy is amazingly layered. Not only are we learning about the events unfolding for Mercy/Carmen in the human world, but we also get glimpses into her past as an angel and her relationship with Luc. Though the main focus is on the human life, it only makes our curiosity about her angelic one grow.

The combination of murder mystery with the paranormal was great and made the story feel very original. I was glad the identity of the kidnapper wasn’t apparent till the very end, allowing the feeling of suspense to carry through the whole book.

As the first in a trilogy (each book has an AMAZINGLY beautiful cover) Mercy is a fantastic start. The story will captivate you and definitely makes us curious enough to put Exile (book two) high on our list of books we’re looking forward to for 2011.

Pages: 280
Publication Date: November 2010
Publisher: Harper Collins
Challenge: n/a
Rating: : ★★★★☆

Teaser Quote: “If I get too comfortable, I will wake one morning and everything around me will have shifted overnight. All I knew? I know no longer. And all I had? Vanished in an instant. There’s nothing I can keep with me that will stay.
I must always re-establish ties.
I must tread carefulle or give myself away.
I must survive.
I must keep moving, but I don’t know why.”